User:Laly

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Mmmm...how to begin :-).

(can hear Jack and Drew both saying...from the beginning OF COURSE!!) lol.

First of all, I am 36 years old, female, heterosexual, and (chuckling) found a place and people that I call my second family. I first learned of KSMO (Jack's Key Sound Multiple Orgasm Trigger Protocol) from forum member Drew in July 2005.

Am getting a little ahead of myself , but follow along and I hope to make things a little clearer as I speak. Growing up I was the only girl (my age) in a 15 block radius. I played football, and most of all the guy things - I hated dolls and dresses. (As I recall, dismantled or dismembered every doll ever given to me- HATED them). I was happier climbing and swinging from a tree than having a tea party. As a child I was sexually molested by a neighbor boy for a number of years and later in my teens violently sexually assaulted by my boyfriend at the time. Both of these left me with a rather unhealthy attitude towards men and towards sex-in general and in more specific areas as well. Both left me so emotionally scarred as well as the phsyical devastation they wrecked.

back then, rape and sexual abuse counseling were not as previlent and as 'knowledgablely' trained counselors were very few too. Not that I could have talked about something so personal to another person anyway. *takes deep breath

For many years after I was plagued and held prisoner to that awful night - doomed to re-live it , sometimes night after night. To try and escape the grips of it, I would make myself orgasm- as many as 4-7 times just so that I could sleep and prayed that the nightmare wouldn't come. Most of the time, it didn't work - like i had hoped it would anyway. In fact, it made me more depressed and angry. Instead of talking about it, I buried everything I felt, all emotion in what I called my "pandora's box". (am sure you all know what happens when someone tries packing too much into a small box- it explodes after awhile.) Mine did eventually- but I won't go into details on precisely how and when that happened - just that it did. *tears up

I met Drew in the early part of 2005 through an exercise website forum we both were part of. We struck up a friendship and over time I got the sense that I could trust him and eventually opened up about my feelings and those memories that I kept locked up. It was his describing how he felt after one of his KSMO sessions that got me curious (not to mention an OH WOW) and allowed me to speak so honestly to him. It was hearing the pleasure that he got from it that I think intrigued me the most and whe He gave me the link for KSMO site and I read peoples' experiences with the KSMO program I knew in my heart I had to try, for myself. I was not happy with who I was and wanted to change.

I didn't choose KSMO program because I wanted better orgasms or sexual experiences, BUT, what I wanted was a healthier outlook on my views of men and sex in general. I wanted NOT to flinch whenever someone touched me or not to jump and feel like my heart was gonna burst out of my chest everytime someone came up to talk to me. I came to KSMO with No expectations at all but to just allow myself to 'be open' to whatever happens.

To this day I do not regret my choice. The past year and 3 months that I have been using KSMO, I have felt and experienced some of the most wonderous sensations and explosive (non-stimulated) KSMO multiple orgasms, heartgasms, and energy waves. I , with Drew's and Jack's wonderful support and guidance, am seeing a counselor who is helping me learn "how to be a woman"- to being me. I travel a great distance to see her, but I come away knowing that the counseling is helping.

Thank you all for listening , and you can find more about my experiences from any of the following links in the WIKI site:

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