As a chart of my own progress, and to invite comments and advice, I am starting a thread on day-by-day progress. So here goes...

Day1 (26Sep03):
Came across the KSMO website after quite a lot of searching around - and it just felt right. Purchased the seminar download, and sat down to listen. Listening on my laptop machine with headphones - the .mp3 is *not* the best; quite a lot of odd distortion that gave me a bit of a headache listening through, but I got through to the end.

Went straight in at the deep end after listening, using the keysound and following the directions about the base of the penis and perineum in the seminar. Some effects noted - but eventually experienced the rush to ejaculatory orgasm.

Realised I was missing something...
Bhikku

Day3 (skipped day 2):
Listened again to the first 20 minutes of the seminar, and decided to go back to square one. Practiced just the key sound - no stimulation. Noticed some echoes; very very very subtle. Could just be keying into my own subtle body conciousness.

Day4:
On lunchbreak, on a 15 minute walk to the local supermarket through some quiet (ie. empty) streets. Gently practiced the key sound whilst walking. Noticed some effects - again, subtle but some arousal there. Note - no stimulation, just breathing and gentle KS LOL!

Evening, spent about 30mins lying down and gently developing the KS, then introduced some gentle stimulation. Again, some very subtle echoes, but nothing that leapt out and said 'I AM AN ECHO EFFECT!'. Spent some time delving on the site to figure out what people meant by protocol.

Went back to it later - another 30 mins or so and things started moving, following 'protocol' a few times I keyed into something. An erotic 'spark' for want of a better word, stop and KS immediately afterwards and the spark seemed to in some way re-appear, diffused throughout my torso and thighs. Nothing 'huge'. In my minds eye, a gentle fog. Carrying on a little further, the charge started to build (I guess) as my thigh muscles started to get into spasming whilst continuing on protocol.

Finished the session (did not follow through to orgasm) and came out with a sort of 'glowing' feeling - feeling 'energized' in some way. Encouraging...

Bhikku

Day5 (1Oct03):
Looked at some erotic material early evening - watched my body's reaction but did not go into it physically.

About an hour later, lay down and started practicing the KS with some gentle stimulation. To start with, my penis stayed soft; sensitive but no move to erection. Then one key time, I stroked myself and caught a spark and breathed with it and used KS. Before I knew it I was very hard - (an echo effect methinks?) and a generally pleasant feeling. Nothing major - but just subtly pleasant. Continued and the erection went. Then a similar pattern followed about 5 minutes later. Then decided to leave the process for a few minutes.

I came back to it again later in the evening - this time using a 'pearl' vibrator just under the glans of my penis. Tried to keep 'on protocol' but probably let things move a little further than the first erotic impluse before stopping and using the KS. I don't know whether this was a good idea or not. Certainly some development, and a diffuse energetic feeling slowly building in my pelvic area. Some other effects; my legs pulled up under me and slightly spread (feet up towards my bum) started spasming on their own a few times. This seemed to fit a pattern of two breaths after using the KS, and continued into the next 'protocol' pattern.

Stopped after about 30-40 minutes. Went and had a smoke and continued to practice - just the breathing with little sound. Noticed some further echoes - like the energy in my pelvic area washing back into the rest of my body.

Next post continues the story of last night...

Bhikku

Day 5 (continued)...
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Then, about 3am I went to bed. My wife was already in bed asleep. I turned on my side and just imagined the key sound and used the breathing pattern that linked with it. Suddenly something seemed to click - the rolling seeming to start in my belly and cause a circulation that returned down into my belly with gentle clenching of the abdominal muscles.

And then the echoes came.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT Was that????

The pleasure waves (for want of a better language - hey if this catches on we will *need* a new language...) flowed from every which way - through my torso. I could feel a great deal of opening. I practiced for about ten minutes before falling asleep and had the distinct impression that by following the breathing alone, I could have come.

wow.

Had some interesting dreams after that...

Bhikku

Day 6:

Today I have enjoyed a pleasurable glow in my torso; strongly around my heart and in my belly pretty much all day. Using the breathing pattern and imagining the KS as yesterday, I found that the pleasure could increase in waves quite significantly. Had to be careful around work - was very tempted to go and find somewhere private *just* to breathe...

Could hardly wait until we got the kids to bed tonight. I started tonights session by doing some breathing, and adding the KS. It feels a lot more 'deep', resonant now. After running with that for about 10 mins, I added the pearl vibe back into the equation. This intensified the pleasurable feelings significantly. The core area seemed to be located in my belly, and with use of the KS waves did emerge to flow through the rest of me.

But I think that there was some anxiousness creeping in here. I wanted to go further, deeper and was not following protocol so closely. Leaving the erotic sensations to build for longer than suggested in the protocol before using the KS. Then finally I stopped using interruptions and just used the KS as felt appropriate.

It was a deep orgasm when it came - but it was accompanied by the ejaculation reflex. I think my 'pushing it' led to my body following the old way.

I definitely feel there was potential to go another path - but I think in my eagerness I stepped past it, had a look in but carried on my habitual route.

Energy-wise, I still have the glow, and may take the breathing exercise further later - there is the energy there.

Also to note - I have felt *really* good all day. Energy, calmness, ease, peace, creativity. It feels like self-imposed barriers are lifting. It feels like falling in love - cliche, but that is the closest I can describe it.

Now - I am going through a big renewal process of my own of which this is a part, but I would be interested to know how much this experience resonates with other travellers on this path. If you have any guidance folks - I am all ears.

And I am hooked.

Ciao
Bhikku

Hi Bhikku

Thanks for posting your story, I think you are correct about the key sound practice having wider benefits than the obvious opening to new sensual feelings.

I have found that beginning practice of ksmo has offered me a chance to redefine myself in so many ways - to rewrite the rules & importantly to question other assumptions regarding my limitations and aspirations.

btw good one for showing restraint in the work place, as Jack says we have to run this energy responsibly & it should be treated as a sexual act (even though it is obviously very much more than that).

Looking forward to your continuing story!

Bilko

Bilko - thanks for the comments!

Day7:
Back to basics. This evening I spent an hour and a half - just on protocol. Little stimulation and as soon as *anything* moved inside, that little opening was expressed via KS. Due to our domestic arrangements, I am concentrating on visualizing the KS itself and am fully expressing the breathing pattern underneath it.

As before when I went this route - muscles are starting to do some interesting things. Thigh muscles, muscles in the small of my back at times almost vibrating - irregular spasming. Intuitively I think this is unblocking energetic pathways. More energy is present in my abdominal area than the system around there is used to. This is the sign of the kettle jumping on the stove.

No 'Wow!', but a feeling that the experience is gently deepening. To do this, I need to let go of 'orgasm' as a goal. That, with this experience is becoming easier - I feel that there is so much to discover.

Emotionally/spiritually - firing on all cylinders. This tells me I am on the right track...


Just another note. The 'blissful' feelings inside, that have been pretty much continuously present since my first 'breakthrough' at Day5 have started moving. Using the KS breath, the feelings can be concentrated and move - they have started moving into my lower back as well.

This fits - I think - with the idea that my energetic pathways are being cleansed and opened. This is similar to the 'Kundalini'-like experiences I have had before, but this does not feel like a momentary opening. In my minds eye there is a tunnel within me that is being opened, strengthened, prepared. Amazing to watch...

Bhikku

Day 8:
Busy day with the kids. Energy into the late evening on other things. Feeling tired.

Worked with the protocol for about 30-40mins. Feels slightly unbalanced - almost like my breathing is going down only the left side.
Some gentle echoes experienced - but they were just that, gentle. No big movements.

Stopped when I felt the frustrated 'want this to move faster' voice ;-).

G'night

Bhikku

Day 9:

This morning I got my weekly lie in. Spent half an hour with the protocol. Experienced gentle moving sensations, and the 'building energy' I have felt before, experienced through muscles incoherently spasming.

This evening I was contemplating the last week of practice, and followed a KS breath. As I carried on thinking, an echo came - a gentle but pleasurable wave in my abdomen. I tried another breath and the same 'peaceful' result.

One week in - feeling a little 'kitchen sink'-ish, but it is easy to call in the feeling and know there is more there to be found.

The mental picture I have is of expanding capacity, reconstruction, rewiring and exercise...

Speaking of which - does anyone else find that their abs seem to be tightening up with using the KS? ;-)

Cheers
Bhikku

Day 10: Pretty much a non-event. I said to myself all evening that I would make time for KS, but I managed to put it off and off and off... Wierd that...

Day 11: No such procrastination tonight...
An interesting experience. For the last two or three days I have not felt much of my own internal 'flow'. Tonight I started with the protocol - and it did not seem to get going. Some effects - but so subtle. Then I broke away for a couple of minutes. When I lay down again, suddenly I was more in the flow for a few minutes, and then the flow again stopped.
Another break. Then coming back it felt like I needed to connect with some 'sexual energy'. So outside the protocol I did some fantasizing, no other stimulation. Then, after a few minutes I went back to the KS and things really started to shift. A few times a wave moved through my body - and then the tremors started after using the KS. I have noticed these in my thighs before, but this time it went into my torso; abs and lower back. Then these started to move further through my body. I stayed with that kind of pattern for about 20 minutes before stopping for the night. I am still in that kind of space now - like my body wants to move with the flow inside...

I would be interested in anyones thoughts on this 'reconnecting' with sexual energy. It seems to be an important step to me right now - outside of the protocol.

Hmmmm...

Bhikku