Last night I had the most intense and direct bodily response to a KSMO session yet. I’ve been working with the position Jack recommends, where one lays on the back with the knees bent and pulled up toward the torso (rather than stretched out), which I hadn’t used in a long time, because I traditionally had been entirely unable to produce the key sound while lying on my back. I would always sit cross-legged. For some reason lately, I’ve been able to produce the key sound in this position and so have been alternating between sitting and lying down. I also have discovered/rediscovered the extent to which this position allows for direct and indirect stimulation with very useful degrees of ejaculation avoidance.

It was late and I was tired, which may be why whatever it was that happened did not flower into an autonomous wave session of MMO or whatever it may have been. I was in the lying back/knees up position and I let a key sound resonate (the way it felt anyway) down and through my lower regions with the energy seeming to flow outward from my lower torso rather than the image of ‘ejaculating’ the sound out from the upper regions as I’ve sometimes imagined it. I felt an immediate, or almost immediate (1-2 second delay?) burst of very warm and sharp energy emanation or flowering in the lower abdomen somewhere around the prostate I think. Maybe more out from the perineum now that I think about it. Anyway, if what I’d been experiencing before as echo effects was the equivalent of watered down whiskey, this was a nice solid shot of ‘the good stuff’ to quote Linda Hunt from Silverado.

I’ve had a couple of little flashes lately that have peaked my curiosity, but this was quite intense in comparison. It only really happened once, even though I continued with the session. I got a lot of nice echoes, and sometimes almost approaching that first burst, but not quite. Another thing that sometimes concerns me is that it doesn’t happen on each key sound. I often use a pillow to cover my face if I think some of the key sounds may have more energy behind them. I try not to ‘force’ volume, but if it feels right, I like to be able to let it go without worrying that the neighbors will be bothered, especially if it’s later at night. I have to keep thinking about my articulation and make sure that my posture, pillow on the face and concept of higher levels of energy are not messing up my correct creation of the key sound.

My immediate reaction upon experiencing that one really intense burst wasn’t what I would call ‘terror at the gates’ but rather very acute surprise followed by a rather tentative hope. Not wanting to ‘want’ too much or chase the fawn, but also thinking that this was the indication of something I’d really only known theoretically before that point. It was so amazing…I have been preaching this stuff and ‘believing’ in it for so long, it was a strange feeling of actually finding what I’ve claimed for so long was there and being taken aback by it. Very surreal. Part of my surprise came from the surge being such a direct result of the key sound…traditionally in my practice, it’s been much more indirect than that.

I’m thinking that it’s best to have a break today, as I’d been rather overzealous in my practice these past few days. I’d been feeling good with a lot of positive energy, which the KSMO feeds into as well as off of, but I think that this calls for a bit of a pause to allow my circuits to adjust a bit as Jack has said. I will continue to watch for night echoes, which is something I’ve experienced (very mild so far) from time to time when I focus on this kind of energy while falling asleep in bed. No touching or anything other than mental focus on my sensations. I’ve had a couple instances where something seemed to try and bubble up, but then subsided. I’m rather neutral about it, and if I don’t get anything after a while, I fall asleep whether I want to or not.

I’ve also ordered the prostate cradle after some of the reviews I’ve read on the forum. It sounds like a wonderful tool and it reminds me of a kinesthetic and visual image I have from early childhood of sitting on a rocking horse or something similar and getting a wonderful erotic (though non-sexual I would say, as I must have been about 4) sensation that was so elusive and pleasurable. I’ve never forgotten that. I think this would be much more ‘convenient’ than something like the Aneros. Anyway, I’d love to hear any comments. Happy Easter everyone!