Haven't been around for a while, but I'm not quite off the map! A busy life, professionally and family-wise; but what I started, getting on for three years now, is still a core part of my growing. (Yes, growing: you don't stop learning and discovering, even at my age). These days, I practise usually two or three times a week, when things are clear; often early mornings when the house is asleep. I'm not a believer, but it's almost like prayer; in so far as it opens a window onto an inner life. Breathing, the usually quiet release of the KS; the prompt awakening, stirring of things down below; allowing the whole body to fill like a reservoir with feeling: sometimes kind of dissolving into a coccoon-like stasis, which sometimes flickers with ecstatic orgasmic feeling, sometimes resolves into a more mental stillness or acceptance. It's enough to be going on with; and it leaves me feeling very well, 'energized', effective. (Good for my work!)

I don't fret that I haven't yet been delivered anything cataclysmic: I can feel that the energy is a long way more substantial, *stranger*, than anything I had before. and that something will be vouchsafed in its own sweet time. Some audio stuff takes me very deep: eg. Kelly's Ecstasy and some of her other discs; and Dr Jeffey Thompson's Gamma Meditation. I also sometimes take time out using electro, for which, I guess, I deserve a slap. But it doesn't seem to compromise the KS practise, still less usurp it.

This is just to remind myself - and others, who may yet be waiting on the side-lines - that the journey is always absorbing, and there is a destination. But already the view is extraordinary, and I can see the Himalayas in the distance.

TANTROS