I've been around here for a few months. But I thought perhaps it was time to start a thread to try to document my progress.

I've been practicing the key sound on and off. Really, other things in my life have to be going well for me to even consider doing it, as when they are not, then relaxation isn't likely. Along those lines success at this is significantly dependent on success, or at least discipline(ie not procrastinating or slacking off, eating healthy and in moderation).

I've had a few mildly successful sessions. The best so far was last night. I felt some pretty good sensations, mostly in my belly, and a general good feeling in the whole area widely surrounding the groin. The feelings started growing about halfway through the key sound when I did it right. I could easily tell when I did it right because the good feelings were there to validate it. It seems the hardest part for me is getting the key sound right. The intensity of the good feelings was not incredible, but it was enough for me to tense up a bit.

So far I consider this successful, as the good feelings from doing this, even though not all that intense, are already better than the feeling associated with ejaculation. I wouldn't even call the feeling associated with ejaculation that I get an orgasm, as it doesn't really feel good. It's more of a release, but I don't even know if it's a good one, and I'm always disappointed afterward. You know(is that all there is?). The feeling associated with key sound are much more enjoyable, even if the intensity isn't all that high yet.

If I actually practice 2-3 times a week I'm sure I'll start seeing some "interesting" results.

Don't know if I just wasn't in the mood, or if I was stressed out, but I got almost nothing out of my session tonight. I DO need to work on the sound. I didn't seem to hit the sound just right at all this time. Maybe I'm too eager to get there too.

Great Bredelly! It is good way to document like you said...I've gone back over the time i've posted to this forum and I am amazed at the progress I've achieved myself. I look back and I just smile .


Good , glad to hear that you are listening to yourself regarding relaxing
and practice...and noting that when you are not 'in sync' .

Sweet on the successes you've had thus far!! Yeah...when the KS is made correctly (for you) it can be very noticeable. For me, making the key sound resonate correctly - i tipped my head back slightly allowing a freer flow of sound from the chest through the throat. Not sure how you position yourself for your practices - for me I generally either lay on my bed on my back (hip issues do not allow me to use floor anymore -sadly) or I am sitting in chair with feet and arms relaxed at sides. I first play about 20 minutes of relaxing music before I begin playing the KS 20 minute section of the audio seminar tape and within a minute am relaxed and the echos (the sensations you describe) begin to arise...the tingles , hot then cold flush over the skin and my heart and chest begin to become warm with the expanding energy and I begin to weep (bliss tears) from the sheer pleasure that is coursing throughout my body.

I am curious on the tensing up for you??? Did that make you uncomfortable at some point and you decided to stop or ??
When I get that feeling of becoming tense I note that and just stop making the KS and breathe in and out slowly until i relax and re-align myself.

Sweet!! Yeah I can definately relate to the orgasming without the pleasure part. I know exactly how you feel in that regard. be gentle with yourself regarding your KS practices , yeah I agree these sessions ARE more enjoyable .

I do ask that you do not rush yourself and listen to what your body does tell you and allow it to guide you. Yeah...just make sure that you do not force yourself in any practice.

With Love and Light,
Laly

I'm finding it hard not to resort to physical stimulation. It's really hard to be patient. But I feel like I've gotten a lot closer since my last posting. Had one session that made my legs start shaking without any physical stimulation. Still, I notice I'm very impatient. I need to relax and take my time and enjoy each step of the process even if I'm not there yet.

On another note, I think I need to work on other things in my life and this will get more natural(not that I need to stop doing KS practice). I have a number of things that are stressing me out. They are all things I have the power to change, yet find myself sabotaging. I think these things hanging over my head prevent me from really relaxing to some extent. Also, over the past few years I've noticed that I have unhealthy fixations on various things(good things) such that I get in my mind that if I just do this thing, or achieve this, I will be satisfied with life, happy, content, joyful. But focusing on those things, including the KSMO thing and the desire for it(and the other things) seems to inhibit progress and prevent me from actually obtaining them. It's like you can get so dissatisfied with not having something that you prevent yourself from ever getting that something. It seems you really have to you have to be happy inside before you can get the things on the outside that you think will make you happy, which in fact don't make you happy so much as they are an effect. Just rambling.

All in all, I seem to be making some progress. I still need to work on my key sound and holding back from finishing with typical stimulation.

I'm still having a really hard time not resorting to conventional stimulation after practice has ended. Fortunately, that has not completely hindered progress. I mention it only to say that I know it is off protocol and head off any comments mentioning that. It's hard to just stop practice with no "release" of any kind to end it. As the sessions get better I think it will be easier not to finish, but I fully intend to end my session by protocol in the future.

I had a good session last night. It really felt like something was close to happening, like I got a lot closer than I ever have with this practice.

For me the good feelings don't really come in waves or anything yet. It's more of a constant sense of minor pleasure over the area from my belly button down to mid-thigh. Nothing incredible yet, but last night it picked up quite a bit. If before I was 20% of the way there, then last night I got to 60 or 70%. Not that I can really have any idea of what's ahead, nor do I think I should attempt to be so technical about it as to assign numbers to gauge progress, especially when I don't really know where the "end" is. I'm just trying to give an idea of the improvement over past sessions.

I am one of the people who orgasmed as a youth while climbing a rope(best maybe only orgasm in my life). Ever since I'm not sure if I've ever realy had an orgasm. Sure I've ejaculated, but that doesn't really feel good. The time leading up to ejaculation usually feels nice, but it tapers off and basically is gone when ejaculation happens. Anyway, the feelings last night started to remind me of the rope orgasm, though they were not nearly to that level of intensity nor did they spread throughout my whole body. But, I'm guessing I'm not to far away from success, especially if I stick to protocol and really get the key sound down. I'm guessing at least the first time it will feel like the rope climbing orgasm.

I've had some thoughts on the memory of that orgasm though. The sense of really having to urinate, and while it is happening the sense of something actually leaving(though not pee obviously) is interesting. I've thought about that aspect quite a bit, and I'm not sure it's totally physical. When you urinate, you let something go. Think about it. Until you pee, you've been subconsciously holding it in. Even it you didn't have to try to hold it in your body has been trying. I think this might relate to orgasming. That orgasm I had really felt like letting go, like something has been held in for a long time, something that needs to go, and finally you can let it go and you feel free, lighter, less attached to anything. And thinking on it more, I think there was even when I was climbing the rope a kind of "terror at the gates" as people have come to call it here. By all means it felt great, but it was still kind of scary, like I was really letting something go, not just letting some physical fluid go(it was a dry orgasm), but like I was actually losing some part of me, or maybe just losing control(not that I was moaning or screaming or anything) and afraid of losing some part of me. It was a long time ago so I'm not too sure about any of this. It may have only been scary because I was just thinking "what the heck is happening to me?" and worrying that I might lose control of my hands and drop 20 feet to the floor or worrying that I was about to pee my pants in front of everyone. I don't know. I'm just babbling.

Hopefully I will soon be able to better relate what it's like.

>Nothing incredible yet, but last night it picked up quite a bit. If before I was 20% of the way there, then last night I got to 60 or 70%. Not that I can really have any idea of what's ahead, nor do I think I should attempt to be so technical about it as to assign numbers to gauge progress, especially when I don't really know where the "end" is. I'm just trying to give an idea of the improvement over past sessions.<

Yes you're right to be wary of trying to measure progress on a percentage scale because, as you rightly say, you cannot know what lies ahead. I, in the course of my practice, have, several times declared to myself "..they just cannot come better than that last one!" - notionally awarding the event a value of 10 on the scale of orgasmic intensity. But this hasn't worked because I've had to reset the scale so many times to acommodate even higher-level subsequent events. If your instinct tells you that you might already be somewhere in the region of 60% on your scale of progress I suggest you make yourself prepared to experience very substantially higher levels of outcome as your practice progresses. Expect the unexpected!

My belief is that a logarithmic scale of comparison of orgasmic intensities would be more realistic and useful than a linear one if it ever becomes possible to measure such. Very recently, experiencing an extraordinary series of heartgasms, I seem to have passed through yet another gate and I reckon that I'm not deluding myself in feeling that suddenly I've just been given a ramp up in my performance of at least double (even after three years of practice).

>......Anyway, the feelings last night started to remind me of the rope orgasm, though they were not nearly to that level of intensity nor did they spread throughout my whole body. But, I'm guessing I'm not to far away from success, especially if I stick to protocol and really get the key sound down. I'm guessing at least the first time it will feel like the rope climbing orgasm.<

I've mentioned this before to you, but I would not be at all surprised if you eventually find your KSMO experiences equalling and then exceeding that event. But you must be patient and not try to push things along.

Apologies for mogging your thread!

Mog