Hi everyone!

Well, I think its about time I introduced myself. I am a 20 year old male with a rather weird relationship with sex. I purchased the first protocal in march and have been practicing KSMO on and off. I usually practice every other day for a week or 2 then take a week or 2 off, so I must admit that I have not been practicing that seriously. Also I have to mouth the sound rather then pronounce it most of the time because I live with family.

I have been into tantrism and chi kung practices for about 2 years. I am able to move energy around my body and have learned many techniques, including sexual sublimation excercises, but alas the one thing that started my quest into these fileds has always escaped my grasp. I have tried many techniques to try and get multiple orgasms including pc excercises, as well as tailbone breathing or the so called anal breathing with no real results. In fact ive been trying just everything to get multiple orgasms for the last few years.

I think what is really stopping me is my rather repressive views on semen spilling and some physical problems I developed as a result, since I was obsessed with "saving every last drop" for spiritual pursuits. One day while masturbating and trying to get multiple orgasms while using REALLY hard pc excercises I somehow damaged my lower areas causing me to have prostatitis, chronic testicular pain all the time, semen leakage into my urine, and weak erections. Ive been living like this for over a year but things are a lot better then they were at the beginning of this ailment.

Imagine, all that I had worked for I had lost. After this incident I became very depressed and had anxiety and sleep problems. Having raised myself on tantric literature telling me the dangers of excessive semen loss, I almost lost my mind. It has taken me a long time to regain my compusre and a lot of my health back, although I still do have all the sexual problems they are not as severe as they used to be. I am still very guilty if I masturbate so i do it only if i cant control myself (I think jacks work on ejaculation compulsion is very accurate) because when i do relieve myself It really is hard to control, and i want to keep ejaculating because one ejaculation is rarely satisfying. Also my views on women have become very negative because of this, and i feel less able to love.

Anyways I know KSMO can help me out a lot since it seems just about everyone can learn it, so far I do get a tingling and a feeling of slight pleasure in the tailbone, especially a few breaths after the key sound, in fact the key sound seems to make these effects go away. the tingling however i have been able to get for years from other practices. Occassinally my tailbone will pulsate but its hard to tell if its involuntary or if
i am doing it. Nowhere close to an orgasm yet, but i can now definitly feel the difference between the arousal that leads towards ejaculation, and the arousal that I feel in the the anal/tailbone areas which i assume the multiple orgasm feeling origintes. I just cant aeem to amplify this small erotic tinge in the tailbone, but i intuitivly feel that if i could i would get it. I would appreciate any advice if you guys think you can give me some pointers, Thanks!

Hello Andrea and welcome to the forum!

Thank you very much for being so honest about your experiences; You can be relieved to know now that your experiences are more common than you think.

Your testament will definitely help other people manage their expectations with the semen withholding issue you used to have.

So as you have learnt, others will also learn too.

There are many posts in the forum about masturbation and the letting go of any attendant and unjustified guilt; You may wish to consider - in the light of those posts - the possibility to - reconsider that guilt back then - and the purpose to which it once served - and how you want it to be from now on.

If it helps, Andrea, I consider my prostate as healthy when I decide to ejaculate about every fourth day MAXIMUM; there is abundant energy circulating within me at my advanced stage of practice, even after six hours post-ejaculation. There are plenty of posts I invite you to find within the forum whereby the energy of orgasm is compared to the tiredness of ejaculation.

Your programme of day on, day off is good! The odd day/week off is also good, cos that's when you can expect some real growth!

So Andrea, we look forward to hearing more from you about your practices!

all the best,

Zeitgeist

I seem to have made an advancement, where if I am practicing ksmo and i am aroused enough i get these machine gun like pulsations in the tailbone area.

These pulsations are very rapid and subtle, and they are the result of me adding a little sexual fantasy to the protocal I believe. However it seems that this arousal needs to be channeled to the tailbone region rather then the penis to make them get stronger

Very good news, Andrea, congratulations!

Yes they do indeed tend to be subtle in the beginning.

They may or may not continue to appear as rapid pulsations.

Give yourself plenty of head space to allow them to be different.

Let them lead you rather than the other way around.

That's one of the most challenging aspects to learn for many people - we are so used to making our orgasms happen, rather than learning how to allow our innate (in-born) body wisdom to guide us into the realm of more fully-awakened orgasmic waves.

Actually, they may be occurring in spite of the sexual fantasy!

Beware of those beliefs getting in your way of further progress.

Attachment to specific beliefs may actually be self-limiting.

Also please be aware that sexual fantasy IS a form of stimulation!

Also please be aware that to the extent that you are involved in a fantasy,
you may be that much less aware of what subtleoccurrences are actually happening to you in the here and now.

If that's working for you for the time being, that's great, Andrea.

If you're putting much energy into trying to channel the energy in a certain way, then once again, you may actually be getting in the way of where your innate multiorgasmic response system may need or want to lead you.

I recommend you do a keyword search on the word allow to see additional discussions about this fundamental concept of success.

Thanks very much for your post!

Wishing you the very best,
Jack