Wow, like most, I'm not quite sure how to explain my recent session with KSMO. It seems that I am able to go a little farther and farther with each session. In this particular practice time I started with and continued to use the protocol for KSMO until I felt a small expanse of pleasure in my penis and scrotal area. After concentrating on that for a while and using the Key Sound, I started to experience a tension in my perenial area that continued to tense stronger until I felt small contractions of pleasure and my body started to shake, or the lower half of me. This continued to occur for a brief period of about 1 minute and during that time I had the distinct feeling like I was on the verge of losing track of time and the sense of things around me.

Anyone have some suggestions or comments? I'm not quite sure whether I should try and relax more or just let the tension progress. What do you all think?

That's great news, canuck - Congratulations!

Your report of sensing incremental increases in the pleasurable Echo Effects sounds like a perfect progression.

I note that you're sensing a little progress with each session.

I want to alert you to an underlying tendency of these responses as they continue to awaken, and that is, that it's natural as you continue for some of your sessions to be a little less intense or remarkable.

This is a natural biological pattern that happens in many areas of experience, known as regression to the mean.

That's fancy language that simply means that the increase in sensation over a series of practice sessions is not necessarily or even likely to continue to improve or increase in every single session.

It is natural for some of your sessions to be a little quieter and calmer.

So when you notice this, don't be alarmed or concerned... imho it just means that your bioerotic response system is integrating the progress you've made so far.

This is an excellent sign that the deep full body multiorgasmic response is indeed continuing to awaken!

Although you did not report any discomfort with these feelings of being on the verge, this is indeed another positive road sign.

It is these kinds of feelings that sometimes trigger that Terror at the Gates phenomenon that we've discussed so much elsewhere.

You have very aptly demonstrated that when you encounter this zone of losing track of time and surroundings, it is not automatic that you would feel fear, etc.

Canuck, you're handling these new awakenings most admirably!

Just keep relaxing into the tensions as they build... continue to allow the automatic body movements and muscle contractions, just breathing into them, while allowing any spontaneous sounds to help you express the energy.

At the times when these spontaneous movements, sensations, and sounds seem to take over, you may want to pause the use of the arousal amplifying Key Sound, while continuing the relaxing breathing, or to use the Key Sound, say, every other set of two to four relaxing breaths.

As the intensity continues to increase, you may just want to shift to gentle, relaxing breaths only, for a while, and enjoy the ride!

Canuck, I hope you'll update this thread with further reports of your experiences during practice, and your excellent questions.

Well done!
Jack

Hey Jack,

Thanks for the encouragment and for the insight into learning more ahead.

yeah..Jack does offer great tips and advice- I know Canuck - from where I stand now ...I am still learning and growing, changing.

I am at a point that I am learning to 'love' myself and (blushing a bit BUT smiling) these past 2 weeks I have done some self-love sessions and the euphoria and happiness that I feel ..well it is a great feeling!!

I went from a place of anger and fear to one of tenderness (with myself) and such openess with my feelings ..I have and continue to see changes within myself and my interactions with others.

With Love and Light,

laly

Hey Laly,

That's great. Learning to love yourself and forgive yourself I think is one of the greatest things I person can learn. Definitely makes life easier.

Thanks Canuck -!!

It was one of the biggest emotional 'blocks' that was keeping me from truly becoming the loving, kind woman i am now.

For the longest time I felt , after being raped- I DIDN'T deserve to be loved...by anyone. I felt so abandoned - by everything ...If God loved me , why did He allow this to happen...Did I say or not say OR DO or not do to encourage this rampage. The mind noise ya know (sad face).

But I am through with that...I have chosen a path of lloving , acceptance , joy.

There are days that the joy knows no bounds and I find that I don't want it to end!! If my 'love' were a beacon of light- no corner, nook or cranny in the world would ever be dark again (kewl huh!!)

With love and joy,

laly

Hey Laly,

That's great! That's a very tough question to answer, "why does God allow bad things to happen?" All I know is, God did not want that to happen to you and is very sad over what happened. He can take the bad and make good out of it though and it's great to see that you are getting healing and joy has returned to your heart. Keep going for all the best!

Thanks Canuck---it took me A LONG TIME to realize that ... I , in certain respects, am grateful in a way ---it has not kept me from being the caring, loving person I am coming to be. Do I wish I hadn't experienced the violence of teh rape SURE ...be lying if i said any different.

In spite of that, I CHOSE to become loving, kind, compassionate, etc.

take care - hugsss

laly