I enjoyed my first session today with the Key Sound. Briefly, I downloaded the first seminar, read the PDF, listened to the 5 mp3s, and re-read the PDF. (Also, I've read about 15 different posts from different areas.)

Keeping in mind what little I researched from other pracitioners - the Fawn, go slow, Erection optional, et. al. - I began. I didn't try too hard, but it was difficult for me to make the correct KEY SOUNDS. I did them okay while I was listening to the MP3 while at work outside (I felt strangely good then!)

My "echos" seemed to come right in the middle of my key sound attempt the FIRST TIME! I relaxed and breathed, not anticipating that it would happen again, remembering not to EXPECT it - remember the Fawn - and it just happened repeatedly with each KEY SOUND, or within the next breath.

I was hard on myself regarding a failure at work today, that seemed to come up during my session, and I was able to forgive myself and move through it rapidly. Then, my eyes began to well up with tears. nevermind how often I've masturbated, I finally felt as though I were being touched with love. Not my own, or anybody else's, just: Love. I wasn't prepared for this.

I've so longed hoped that my wife would touch me and give me such feelings. I wondered for so long what I would need to do to prove that I deserved to be touched with love.

I spent the last 5 minutes of my 20 minute session touching myself all over. I know that this is not protocol, but I deviated from protocol because something inside told me that I desperately needed this. Different parts of my body felt so alive as I touched them.

I never became more than half-erect, at best, but my heart and my well being were so overflowing, even now at an hour after completion. I was prepared to be patient with this Key Sound stuff, I am just so suprised at how much I feel I've received so far.

I have no expectations for my next session, not even so much as a repeat. I want to do it again right now. I want to do it again tomorrow. But I wont. I will wait two days or more. I will ignore my own naturally existing arrogance, I will not pretend that I know better. I am confident that my body holds my soul's secrets and will bring them to the fore when they are ready to be dealt with. I am confident that I am on my way.

Thank-you for providing my with the tools to feel this way.