So it's been a while since I've posted to the forum, more out of thinking that I'd have to have some major KSMO event happen before I posted than anything. But as I've come to learn the last couple of weeks, this is a lie. As I continue on with my practice though and by reading through alot of the posts in the forum, I've come to realize that KSMO is more about the journey than it is trying to force yourself to a destination, ie. orgasm.

My progress has been subtle over the past two years, but as I look back I see that I have come along way in KSMO. I would say that two of my greatest set backs or furballs had to deal with the working out of wrong religious views and with not relaxing. I've come to discover in the last couple of years, alot to KSMO, that I carry a lot of stress in my body and find it hard to relax, which is a key essential in KSMO. Whether that stress is from work, going to the gym or frustrating wrong thoughts it all worked towards keeping me from fully relaxing. To make a long story short, to get where I am now, I've had to learn to workout more efficiently at the gym by not over doing things and learn to relax more and enjoy life. Monthly massage sessions have helped as well.

Though I could barely feel a tingle when I started KSMO, I am now able to read through various adept members' posts and find common experiences. As of recent I feel I am on the verge of experiencing a whole new level of KSMO. I am feeling more pleasurable feelings, even as I write this, through my body. Ranging from tingling in the arms to tingles and pleasure running up and down my spine to heat and pleasure felt through my chest and genitals. When I am practicing KSMO I feel, like Laly, that I am on the verge of falling into a vat of warm cozzy jello and just letting go into the waves of pleasure and bliss. I can't wait to get to this point, as what I am experiencing now is awesome, but I must continue to remember not to chase the feelings but to wait and enjoy the now. As Jack mentioned before it's like watching a fawn come out of the forest and wanting it to come close to you. You have to relax be still and let it come to you because chasing it will only cause it to flee. Great analogy. Thanks again Jack!