I'm finding it hard not to resort to physical stimulation. It's really hard to be patient. But I feel like I've gotten a lot closer since my last posting. Had one session that made my legs start shaking without any physical stimulation. Still, I notice I'm very impatient. I need to relax and take my time and enjoy each step of the process even if I'm not there yet.

On another note, I think I need to work on other things in my life and this will get more natural(not that I need to stop doing KS practice). I have a number of things that are stressing me out. They are all things I have the power to change, yet find myself sabotaging. I think these things hanging over my head prevent me from really relaxing to some extent. Also, over the past few years I've noticed that I have unhealthy fixations on various things(good things) such that I get in my mind that if I just do this thing, or achieve this, I will be satisfied with life, happy, content, joyful. But focusing on those things, including the KSMO thing and the desire for it(and the other things) seems to inhibit progress and prevent me from actually obtaining them. It's like you can get so dissatisfied with not having something that you prevent yourself from ever getting that something. It seems you really have to you have to be happy inside before you can get the things on the outside that you think will make you happy, which in fact don't make you happy so much as they are an effect. Just rambling.

All in all, I seem to be making some progress. I still need to work on my key sound and holding back from finishing with typical stimulation.