Laly- thanks so much for the encouragement. I haven't been reading much in the forums lately, but I've read some of your posts and I respect you for what you've gone through.

In spite of my previous post, it turns out that all is not fun and games over here. Jack suspected that the tension in my throat might be from an emotional blockage and suddenly I have to agree with him. Today I became keenly aware of an emotional blockage--pretty severe blockage. I feel there's great emotions below this that I'm keeping carefully dammed up, and once they've been released I doubt I could stop tears from coming.

The lucky part of all this is that I know what I have to do to resolve this. And my body tells me it has to happen tonight, provided I have the courage. This feeling came up probably a month ago, and I didn't act on it but instead filed it under the "I'll get to it" category. I'm feeling a strong dread as I write this.

I'll be checking in soon
Airn