Hi J, welcome to our online community, and thank you very much for sharing such painful information.

It is well beyond the scope of our informal discussions here to directly address the serious issues which you are describing.

We of course are here to provide you friendly support and encouragement in seeking professional help to resolve these issues so that you may move on in your intimate life, and in your Multiple Orgasm Trigger practice.

Fortunately, in the general area where you live, there are a number of very gifted therapists who are specifically trained and professionally certified for helping you with the very issues you are describing.

These are my esteemed colleagues who are members of the American Association of Sexuality Educators Counselors and Therapists (AASECT).

With your permission, and without revealing your actual identity, on the AASECT members professional listserv, I'd like to post the link to the public post you have made here and ask of them who in your geographical area may be qualified to help you heal these deep issues.

Once I receive a reply from them, I will communicate that information to you privately.

Meanwhile, according to our Multiple Orgasm Trigger Protocol, when these emotional furballs (i.e. painful old memories, wounds, associations, etc.) come to the surface, it is a signal to temporarily pause your Multiple Orgasm Trigger practice and get the professional help you deserve.

Although I am urging you to pause your active practice while you arrange for professional assistance with your healing, you of course are very welcome to continue to post here and to dialogue with me and the other members of our community, for informal support in your journey.

Once you get that professional support in place and begin to feel some relief from your distress, then is a more appropriate time to resume your active practice of the Multiple Orgasm Trigger protocol.

Ignoring this advice (based on many years experience) is akin to continuing to drive your car with the oil warning light on.

I think you understand what I mean.

Laly and others here I'm sure will attest to the wisdom and prudence of your taking this action immediately.

I understand that you feel discouraged based on past experiences in seeking help, but the professionals in AASECT are specifically trained and under clinical supervision to most effectively assist you with sexually-related matters. It is their specific field of specialization.

These people are the very best at helping you with issues of sexuality.

Wishing you the *very* best that life has to offer - one step at a time - one day at a time,
Jack