Hello Andrea and welcome to the forum!

Thank you very much for being so honest about your experiences; You can be relieved to know now that your experiences are more common than you think.

Your testament will definitely help other people manage their expectations with the semen withholding issue you used to have.

So as you have learnt, others will also learn too.

There are many posts in the forum about masturbation and the letting go of any attendant and unjustified guilt; You may wish to consider - in the light of those posts - the possibility to - reconsider that guilt back then - and the purpose to which it once served - and how you want it to be from now on.

If it helps, Andrea, I consider my prostate as healthy when I decide to ejaculate about every fourth day MAXIMUM; there is abundant energy circulating within me at my advanced stage of practice, even after six hours post-ejaculation. There are plenty of posts I invite you to find within the forum whereby the energy of orgasm is compared to the tiredness of ejaculation.

Your programme of day on, day off is good! The odd day/week off is also good, cos that's when you can expect some real growth!

So Andrea, we look forward to hearing more from you about your practices!

all the best,

Zeitgeist