Thanks Smithie...that is exactly the advice I been hearing from others too. :-)

And...what made me feel worse was the fact that i didn't share how I was feelings with my friend at the time - I didn't want to 'bother' him with it. His susqusent (sp?) sad face to me made me feel reaallly bad then. I didn't want to divert his attention or energy away from a workshop that he co-hosts.

What hurt the most for me was that no matter how many times I meditated enough to sleep I'd just get that same OMG feelings again.

I hope that I NEVER really remember everything from that night - I don't think I could manage it again - to relive those awful feelings again. Is bad eonough now that I find it hard to hug someone or even accept a kind word or compliment in my behalf. Much less join in a group conversation.

I am improving on getting more involved in the group participation though. One step at a time- easy does it- etc.


Thank you for caring

Laly