Hey Jack, Thanks for the extremely useful feedback! :-D

Yeah, Laly's empathy is positively {{*radiating*}} so well in posts to me, to others and also in her own reflective words, back to herself in so many *healing* ways! Way to go!


Ok, I shall give more details of my experiences, I hope to give a fuller explanation, however, sometimes I struggle to give exactly the right words to my experiences so please bear with me...

...During my current KS session, after a time that feels 'right' - usually when the area around the prostate to perineum feels 'full' or buzzy as a result of using the key sound only, I introduce the slight erotic stim. The increasing charge of sexual feeling is dissipated with the FULL key sound. [The forum discussions about the _rolling quality_ is essential reading as it appears to be efficacious in helping] producing the echo effects.

Over the time of the session, these echoes are producing sporadic hotspots of sexual feeling (like one would get in one's sexual organs) in other parts of my body - as in my right shoulder area for example. Other echoes of buzzy or pins and needles sensations, muscle spasms, hotness may also be present in other areas as I continue to practice. It feels like my body is 'awakening'. Some of these feelings I cannot attribute to any part of my body yet are a part of my experience.

My intuition which I hinted at in my last post, comes from several experiences of sexual sensation that are new to me. Towards the end of the past few sessions, where the level of recognisable sexual feelings is high, I sensed a few, brief, momentary, intense experiences of different NEW sensations that appear to be sexual in nature and have different 'flavours'. One of these experiences had such intensity that I meta-commented:
"Will I be able to stand being fully immersed in THAT (amount of feeling)?" :-o
I can now begin to understand the concept of 'the terror at the gates' - even if my sensations are only precursors to what's to come. Maybe its a good question to ask those whom have travelled this path before.
However, my present intention is to 'be in the moment' and continue to allow the growth of the echoes.

One trap that I do recognise and have caught myself doing once or twice is trying to keep the sexual energy up by concentration rather than letting go. Breathing helps!

The end of each KS session can end in two ways. I can decide to finish the session and just stop what I am doing or I find the sexual charge disappears in a sort of "Huh? Where did it go??" I think this is a circuit breaker. I'm guessing that my body needs time and space to process what's going on, maybe is part of the charge acceptance, or has come up against an issue that needs sorting - although I'm not conscious of anything... yet. Emotionally, I had some down days recently for no apparent reason which maybe part of my growth.
Hey, I've become a moody teenager again!



More soon!


'ZG'