Laly

I've spent some time ...pert near a month searching the deepest recesses of my mind, my heart and my spirit--

The past month I have taken part of a Master Minding Class with world renown author Al Diaz (http://www.thetitusconcept.com) who wrote a couple of wonderful books- one called The Titus Concept.

Now not to plug his book TOO much ...suffice it to say it is a great book that helps you to find your true and loving self...not by showing you what you don't know--...

Got a phone call from my half-brother earlier tonite...he said he is working with a Bob Bowles.

I just said "yeah". He replies- he wanted to say hi to you.

I said Oh, then he hung up.

For those of you wondering who I am speaking of (and I hope I am thinking of right person brother speaks of), Bob is the man who raped me many years ago.

So many thoughts run through my mind right now. The "what ifs"...

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Hi....been a real roller coaster ride for me the past two months-emotionally.

I am happier, free-er than I've felt in a long long time.

For a first time ever I am looking forward to the New Year....Jack, Drew and a few others will understand what I mean about that. The fear behind this is no longer there .

I still am having my visions/lucid dreams...altho still plagued as to why.

Merry Christmas to all and a very Happy New year too

K Jack...some good news to share today.

I think my grandpa finally "got the hint" that I didn't want hugs from him anymore - since he never even tried to do that today.

He sat in chair next to mine - and for once -- I never flinched, showed any fear ... a HUGE step forward in courage for me !!! We even talked a little about my next trip to MI .

On another issue...I got to hold n play with/feed my great-nephew , who's just starting to cut...

"From there on, I was in high spirits the rest of the workshop. I didn't let anything get me down...I total change from that morning. The energy n spirit of the room just filled me completely!"

K-- to continue on ...

The energy in that room was enormous...I could hardly sit still...during breaks would go up in the open area close to speakers and I danced. The smile on my face huge as I did so. It was as if I had wings I could have flow- I felt that light...