New Toys!!!!
Posted 4th January 2008 at 08:35 by Valentine
Updated 4th January 2008 at 08:39 by Valentine (MISSPELLINGS)
Updated 4th January 2008 at 08:39 by Valentine (MISSPELLINGS)
I just read all of my previous blog posts. I have really come a long way. I don't even remember the last time I practiced KSMO, other than just a few minutes ago. But I'm not gonna get into that just yet. There is backstory!!
So, I don't know how far back to go, because technically, it starts Christmas day. Which I almost missed (a backstory in itself). I think I would be best to say that I got a few amazon gift certificates for presents, and the good stuff started not but a few hours ago.
I had ordered a few things, some of them being an aneros helix, ecstasy cd, and two body balls. What I got today were the helix and the cd. I immediately went to my room and tore the packaging off both. Since I had to take a shower, and go to the bathroom, I took the aneros and cd with me.
I read all contents of the cd whilst going no. 2 in the potty. After flushing, I put the cd away and took out the helix and some ky jelly. I jumped into the shower and rinsed my bum off, applied some ky to the helix, and inserted. It was different. I didn't play with it, I just put it in since I was curious and I had just gotten it as a new toy.
I can totally see my sister rolling her eye's and saying, 'righhhhht, putting things in your butt because you are just curious.'
I took it out after about three minutes, finished my showering, and scurried to my room to browse my new cd. That cd certainly does something. I had randomly clicked somewhere on the first track, and the music, I don't know. My body was instantly saturated with energy. It was like I had hit a wall, and the wall was going through me. It was not comfortable. I clicked somewhere else on the second track, and it felt like my chest was swelling, like it was getting ready to push out. Again this was instant.
It was at this point I decided that jumping around on the cd when I was currently so energy sensitive was probably not a good idea. So I put it away, and made a mental note to listen to it as intended.
Ok, that was the backstory. It really didn't have anything to do with my last KSMO practice, but who doesn't want to talk about their new toys??
So, I did my KSMO. It was very different. I had:
-hot flashes
-knee spasms
-right arm spasm(it was on my chest)
-whole body spasm
-whole body rigidity
-lots of pleasure waves
-my throat had so much, I don't know, pressure, a block maybe???
-pc and sphincter muscles went nuts
-lower abs randomly started feeling really really good
-I was feeling so good, and my pc and sphincter were contracting like crazy, I thought I had an erection, but I didn't. I was limp as a noodle.
-verge of bliss tears
-crying after session
Lots of good stuff. A few things confused me. I was on the edge of having a FBO, I mean, I was almost THERE. And then it was like someone turned off the switch. All the feelings, everything, just went away. Gone. I got a few pleasure waves later, but they were very much diminished.
Also, the whole body rigidity. I wasn't making myself rigid, I was relaxing as best I could, but the pleasure waves got so intense, my body just kinda 'froze'. I was still able to breathe. In fact, I am quite proud to say that I was able to let go, relax, and breathe through the more intense pleasurable happenings. This is something I wasn't able to do before. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this.
The throat pressure was different. It felt like I wouldn't be able to talk, like something was blocking my throat and was expanding. But I could still get the KS out easily. It was really weird, and constant throughout the practice.
And finally, the crying after the session. I rolled over onto my belly after the KSMO, and thought about what happened and how great it was. I then thought about how wonderful it would be to read a girlfriend to sleep. And then say, 'I love you so much.' as I finish the book and hold her close.
I just started crying. I was pouring out love. And it felt so good. GOD, that sentence doesn't even describe it. Not even close.
I then thought about how I didn't have that, and sad cryed. It sucked, but was a nice release. I should have released more, but my nose was running onto my bed, and that made me laugh.
So, I don't know how far back to go, because technically, it starts Christmas day. Which I almost missed (a backstory in itself). I think I would be best to say that I got a few amazon gift certificates for presents, and the good stuff started not but a few hours ago.
I had ordered a few things, some of them being an aneros helix, ecstasy cd, and two body balls. What I got today were the helix and the cd. I immediately went to my room and tore the packaging off both. Since I had to take a shower, and go to the bathroom, I took the aneros and cd with me.
I read all contents of the cd whilst going no. 2 in the potty. After flushing, I put the cd away and took out the helix and some ky jelly. I jumped into the shower and rinsed my bum off, applied some ky to the helix, and inserted. It was different. I didn't play with it, I just put it in since I was curious and I had just gotten it as a new toy.
I can totally see my sister rolling her eye's and saying, 'righhhhht, putting things in your butt because you are just curious.'
I took it out after about three minutes, finished my showering, and scurried to my room to browse my new cd. That cd certainly does something. I had randomly clicked somewhere on the first track, and the music, I don't know. My body was instantly saturated with energy. It was like I had hit a wall, and the wall was going through me. It was not comfortable. I clicked somewhere else on the second track, and it felt like my chest was swelling, like it was getting ready to push out. Again this was instant.
It was at this point I decided that jumping around on the cd when I was currently so energy sensitive was probably not a good idea. So I put it away, and made a mental note to listen to it as intended.
Ok, that was the backstory. It really didn't have anything to do with my last KSMO practice, but who doesn't want to talk about their new toys??
So, I did my KSMO. It was very different. I had:
-hot flashes
-knee spasms
-right arm spasm(it was on my chest)
-whole body spasm
-whole body rigidity
-lots of pleasure waves
-my throat had so much, I don't know, pressure, a block maybe???
-pc and sphincter muscles went nuts
-lower abs randomly started feeling really really good
-I was feeling so good, and my pc and sphincter were contracting like crazy, I thought I had an erection, but I didn't. I was limp as a noodle.
-verge of bliss tears
-crying after session
Lots of good stuff. A few things confused me. I was on the edge of having a FBO, I mean, I was almost THERE. And then it was like someone turned off the switch. All the feelings, everything, just went away. Gone. I got a few pleasure waves later, but they were very much diminished.
Also, the whole body rigidity. I wasn't making myself rigid, I was relaxing as best I could, but the pleasure waves got so intense, my body just kinda 'froze'. I was still able to breathe. In fact, I am quite proud to say that I was able to let go, relax, and breathe through the more intense pleasurable happenings. This is something I wasn't able to do before. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this.
The throat pressure was different. It felt like I wouldn't be able to talk, like something was blocking my throat and was expanding. But I could still get the KS out easily. It was really weird, and constant throughout the practice.
And finally, the crying after the session. I rolled over onto my belly after the KSMO, and thought about what happened and how great it was. I then thought about how wonderful it would be to read a girlfriend to sleep. And then say, 'I love you so much.' as I finish the book and hold her close.
I just started crying. I was pouring out love. And it felt so good. GOD, that sentence doesn't even describe it. Not even close.
I then thought about how I didn't have that, and sad cryed. It sucked, but was a nice release. I should have released more, but my nose was running onto my bed, and that made me laugh.
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Hi Valentine,
An interesting blog! Your early indications, strong evidence of the start of the re-wiring of your body, are so very characteristic of the early stages of KSMO practice. These responses can be so different between individuals that it’s probably impossible to foretell what to expect. Most of those sensations are erotic in nature – those will grow and develop. But those that seem of a kind to detract from the developing erotic experience can be very surprising, even sometimes a little worrying, but they do tend to become fewer and eventually disappear as you travel further down the trail. Although at times in the orgasmic cycle my breathing stops altogether it’s only temporary and soon re-starts. I don’t think this is at all unusual. Nevertheless, I’m always a bit surprised that the breathing and also the heart seem to continue to operate effectively even when the rest of the body, in the throes of a massive FBO - Full Body Orgasms, seems like a block of vibrating electrified marble. It’s good to see that you are getting some very positive and unmistakable early results from the KSMO. You are right to be very pleased with what’s happening! Good luck, and tell us about your continued progress. Mog |
 
Updated 4th January 2008 at 19:11 by Jack (spell correction - explicating "FBO" for keyword indexing) |
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