Notes from the last month

It's been quite the month in the life of Lopez... that said, I feel life has got in the way of my practice (or at least I let it get in the way) and thus I haven't been as consistent as I'd like to be. No matter though.. I have so much time ahead of me.

In the few sessions that I did have I did make several observations. Early in the month of December I noticed in one session that my Key Sound had begun to take on relaxing properties. I was no longer consciously focusing on the articulation of the sound but rather enjoying it and allow it to relax me. With each articulation I felt the muscles in my face release its stored tension and felt these muscles slide into that smooth relaxed sensation. Nice.

As the month rolled on I became more aware of the relaxing properties of my Key Sound. I enjoy slipping into a meditative state before articulating and found this to be a touch TOO relaxing while laying on my back. Since this observation I have now consigned myself to seated sessions.

A week before Christmas I decided to have a seated session in front of a mirror. Not long into my session I noticed that the vision of myself, reflected by the mirror, began to bend, blur, distort and darken (I recall Justn_Otherguy noting a similar experiencing in a recent post).

First, I noticed the bend/distortion in my vision, which was odd but did not disturb my practice. Second came 'the darkness'... although it wasn't frightening to me. In fact the darkness covered me in ways to alter my appearance (embodiment of a spirit/soul guide perhaps?). I noticed that it had given me a beard and rather different countenance.. and to tell you the truth my first thought about it was: "Did Jesus look like this?" Closely, followed by: "Who is this?" (hence the spirit/soul guide curiosity)

Following this what really struck me was the radiance of my eyes. Despite the 'darkness' enveloping parts of my vision, my eyes seemed to glow brighter. (If anyone has seen Stargate: the movie, it resembled how Ra's eyes light up). My eyes were enchanting and it certainly was a strange experience.

After Christmas I had another session where I took great pride in setting the scene. I turned off all electrical appliances and unhinged the kitchen clock and moved it away so I couldn't hear its tick. I lit some candles, switched the lights off and burned some incense.

With the scene set I began to meditate, seated in my lounge chair. The chatter didnt quite subside after what seemed like 10-15 minutes, so I chose to begin articulating the Key Sound with the intent to view the sound as a meditative mantra.

After what seemed like another 10-15 minutes I chose to stop articulating, and chose to continue seated, relaxing into my environment. What I had noticed was that I had entered into a deep meditative state unlike any that I have ever been in before. My mind was STILL.

I was aware of my stillness (which at times this very acknowledgment pushes me out of the stillnes) and began a simple Q&A exercise with what I felt was my higher Self/intuition. In this stillness my intention was to ask a question and accept the first answer that comes to me.

As I made my way through the list (that I had to 'think' of.. I'll be more prepared next time ) I began to ask questions about my practice of KSMO. After I felt I had my answers I sensed a distinct "try it now!" So I did..

Following the intuitive guidance I continued to articulate for the second time that night and distinctly felt energy being pushed around in certain parts of my body. Energy seemed to move itself to predominantly my ears and some to the back of my neck (connecting my ears).

The articulations were far more resonant and had also pushed this energy into my hands.. of which I can only describe as a paradoxical 'hot and cold' kind of energy.

Since then I've been tied up.. but have an exciting appointment with myself tomorrow.

In conclusion, the emphasis on relaxation runs deep in my experience and so has the emphasis to treat my sessions and articulations as meditations. The doors are opening.

Until next time.

Lopez.