A moment of reflection
Posted 21st December 2008 at 19:01 by Justn_Otherguy
I just got done crying. I allowed those sad feelings to come out and finally properly grieved for my cat. She passed away a few months ago at the age of 9. It happened as I was listening to Hootie and the Blowfish's "Let Her Cry". That song has proven to be a very good facilitator for me in allowing those sad feelings to have their 15 seconds of fame.
I was just sitting here thinking about the progress I've made with KSMO over the past year. My ability to feel those emotions and let them out is compelling evidence to me of how Jack's technique can really change a person. I have been very reluctant in the past about feeling, or rather showing, my emotions even when I'm by myself.
Lately, I find myself laughing at a passing thought out loud. Jack calls them laughgasms and the word is entirely appropriate. It's a slightly different laugh. It seems to have a life of it's own and fairly springs from my throat unbidden. This cry had a similar quality to it. I feel a sense of relief now that it's out.
I remember my first steps down this road and how hard I tried to follow Jack's protocol as if it was carved in stone. I'm still letting loose the chains of thought that persist in the idea that there is a schedule or regimen to follow. Jack says repeatedly that these are guidelines, but I am a creature of habit and I'm most comfortable when things follow a fairly predictable routine. My body would have me think otherwise. For no apparent reason pleasure waves now come and go on a daily basis and at times I'm able to encourage them.
By imagining a line of sexual energy traveling up my spine as I slowly inhale and then as I exhale seeing it pour out the top of my head and cascade down my body in orgasmic waves of pleasure I have been able to feel incredibly intense orgasmic sensations in my tailbone that travels as far up as the small of my back and now I'm getting fleeting sensations even further up.
For those Family Guy fans out there, remember when Peter had a stroke and went into the stem cell research lab? He came out looking just fine and asked "WHY are we not FUNDING this?" I'm having a similar WTF moment. Why is this knowledge not more commonly known? Never in my life did I think such things were possible. And with the exception of a couple of times when the pleasure was so intense I could only tolerate it for a few seconds, I'm pretty sure I haven't even had a dry orgasm yet. On both of those occasions, I was applying pressure to various spots on my perineum while using my Aneros Progasm.
To date I have yet to use any direct penile stimulation in my KSMO sessions and even my nipple stim has been reduced to a point where I lightly stroke them for a minute or so and then drag my thumbs downward and slightly outward very slowly. Less is more, people. It's strange but true and it works.
I'm rambling a bit here, probably due to the recent release of built up tension. Just felt the urge to blog a bit. Sorry about the rather sad tone but I'm taking an uplifting feeling away from it because I know I'm making progress.
Happy Holidays to all.
I was just sitting here thinking about the progress I've made with KSMO over the past year. My ability to feel those emotions and let them out is compelling evidence to me of how Jack's technique can really change a person. I have been very reluctant in the past about feeling, or rather showing, my emotions even when I'm by myself.
Lately, I find myself laughing at a passing thought out loud. Jack calls them laughgasms and the word is entirely appropriate. It's a slightly different laugh. It seems to have a life of it's own and fairly springs from my throat unbidden. This cry had a similar quality to it. I feel a sense of relief now that it's out.
I remember my first steps down this road and how hard I tried to follow Jack's protocol as if it was carved in stone. I'm still letting loose the chains of thought that persist in the idea that there is a schedule or regimen to follow. Jack says repeatedly that these are guidelines, but I am a creature of habit and I'm most comfortable when things follow a fairly predictable routine. My body would have me think otherwise. For no apparent reason pleasure waves now come and go on a daily basis and at times I'm able to encourage them.
By imagining a line of sexual energy traveling up my spine as I slowly inhale and then as I exhale seeing it pour out the top of my head and cascade down my body in orgasmic waves of pleasure I have been able to feel incredibly intense orgasmic sensations in my tailbone that travels as far up as the small of my back and now I'm getting fleeting sensations even further up.
For those Family Guy fans out there, remember when Peter had a stroke and went into the stem cell research lab? He came out looking just fine and asked "WHY are we not FUNDING this?" I'm having a similar WTF moment. Why is this knowledge not more commonly known? Never in my life did I think such things were possible. And with the exception of a couple of times when the pleasure was so intense I could only tolerate it for a few seconds, I'm pretty sure I haven't even had a dry orgasm yet. On both of those occasions, I was applying pressure to various spots on my perineum while using my Aneros Progasm.
To date I have yet to use any direct penile stimulation in my KSMO sessions and even my nipple stim has been reduced to a point where I lightly stroke them for a minute or so and then drag my thumbs downward and slightly outward very slowly. Less is more, people. It's strange but true and it works.
I'm rambling a bit here, probably due to the recent release of built up tension. Just felt the urge to blog a bit. Sorry about the rather sad tone but I'm taking an uplifting feeling away from it because I know I'm making progress.
Happy Holidays to all.
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