laly's Liberation-journey to emotional freedom

Hi everyone...am back from the Family Constellations workshop and so many things come to mind that I want to share am just bursting.

First of all, that week didn't start out the best as I had the flu all that week before the workshop-- even having to travel to Michigan while still not feeling 100%...

I almost....almost thought of not going...but I felt I needed to go. There was something that I had intended on sharing with the group and had for weeks beforehand been gathering the courage to share my story with the group. IF i hadn't discussed it with them this month ...only assuming here-- but I do not think I would have gotten the courage to share it later on- not in the detail in which I was so forthcoming this time.

Sorry- don't mean to 'beat around the bush' ...just giving an insight as to what I think would have happened if I hadn't shared at Saturday's workshop. Now bear in mind I STILL wasn't feeling 100% on Saturday...in fact almost felt like leaving the workshop and heading home...and even told Drew that...BUT I also said I wasn't going to- BUT that I planned to take it easy that day...all I did was run the registration table-- the food set up-- someone else did (BOY was I glad for that!! )

Anyway...getting sidetracked ...lol.

At one point in the workshop... it was discussed that it is possible for people to "take on" other people's things without realizing it-- like a deceased sibling or parent/family member. That is try and take their place in the family 'systemic' order. Drew presented an example of one way that this could happen, and I raised my hand n waited to be recognized. Now the entire time I had been listening to people talking... I felt a presence surrounding me the entire time and upon my shoulders and arms. It is was gave me the courage to speak up.

I shared with the group my family story -- which correlated with what we were just discussing- and that is ---

I learned a few years ago that I had/have 10 siblings I never knew about and that I am the only surviving female (besides my two older brothers). Let me just say the looks on people's faces in the room when I said that --looks of disbelief and even shock! Now normally I would have broke down and cried, but this time I held my head up and looked at each face head on- not looking down or nothing. A HUGE step of courage for me.

It was a great day for me . After lunch (eating what I could) , I perked up energy wise and started to feel the energy of the room. From that point on, it was a great day for me.
I didn't let not hearing good upset me at all...but breathed in the energy of the room and released it.

A truly wonderful day for me ...despite starting it not feeling 100% normal .