laly's Liberation-journey to emotional freedom

HI...had a couple really good chats yesterday with Jack .

In the first chat, I talk of my dream I had and a few other realizations I had . A few fur-balls I faced and over-came.

In the second chat, despite to once again talk and take up precious chat time for others- I answered a question Jack asked me in the first chat , but failed to answer regarding Dan Millman's Peaceful Warrior movie. I shared with the group how seeing that movie and how it incorporated into my KSMO 'life'...much like KSMO it focuses on being 'aware' of yourself -- and of your surroundings. How your body interacts and reacts with the environment- the KS (key sound) and how it resonates with your body and your mind. Of your ability in allowing self to 'let go" and just "feel" .

Lopez mentioned attending a 10 day meditation retreat and listening to him was fascinating (despite having been up for 14-15 hours at that point)...I was intrigued by idea of doing meditation for more than a few hours. I too am not professionally training or had formal training on how to meditate. I use the pdf file from KSMOTP as a foundation -- the part about relaxing, focusing on what the body is doing sensation wise- slowing breathing, letting all tension flow out of the body.

AS I typed that, my body automatically started doing just that- breath slowing n deepening, tension just releasing . As I 'probe' what my body is doing right now -- i can feel the ache/twinge in my right hip, the tenseness in my shoulders -- both from a restless night of tossing as I kept most of the night 'seeing' pale pink/lavendar shapes in the darkness of my mind's eye. I remember thinking "no, go away - please" . So for a few hours - that I can recall - I tossed and turned ....mentally trying to chase them away.

When morning came today, I was like OH MAN...i felt like I wrestled with a few ...oh how to put this --I guess I would have to say personal demons.

I am taking the day and listening to my Reiki music and meditation tapes and hoping to clear mind and once again find peace and co-existence with self.

As you can see, the KSMOTP method is more than learning about sex . It is learning about yourself .

Love and Light